Endless Numbered Days
Video: Veronica Anderson
Endless Numbered Days
Digital video, sound, looped. Installation view of the exhibition: Breaking Up, 2021 -.2022
Phoenix Art Museum - Phoenix, Arizona
2022
I am a full-time caregiver to my mother. I’m watching someone I love die. I’ve worried about this happening since I was nine years old. Now that it is approaching, I don’t quite know what to do. Everyday is a new aliment, a new normal.
With Endless Numbered Days, I can see that my own life is limited. Death is no longer a remote possibility but a daily concern among a sea of concerns. My current work translates what is happening - my attempt to soften the transitions, to practice at death.
Observations on Endless Numbered Days
Monotonous, unending, wave after wave
All encompassing, enveloped in blue, ceaseless treading - if you stop resisting the waves, the environment, you will cease to live.
You acknowledge that this is unsustainable and, yet, continue
Utter exhaustion. The long experience - End the only thing left
just the end - nothing else in sight
the slow turning of the exhausted body slowly, exquisitely falling to rest
Acknowledging the water is no longer to be treaded
no longer needing to practicing at death
